Good Moods and Spontaneous Fobs
11/01/2003 11:51 p.m.
Wow I'm in a great mood. Like, a great great great mood. It's weird, cuz usually I wouldn't be, seeing as right now I have a holter moniter on, as I'll have for the next 24 hours. It makes me feel like robo-woman, lol. Basically it looks like a walkman with 5 wires coming out of it. Those 5 are connected to me, all over my upper half. Now I could find this hindering, and semi-depressing, or I could find it funny. right now i find it super super funny. That and last night was hilarious. I went to Jordan and Matt's Halloween party. SO fun, lol. it was great that by the end of the night I was in Jordans room, alone with him, and we could hear people outside saying "yah, they're like making out or doing it or something in there. dont go in" lol. We were chatting! Man, there's alot to talk about with that boy. Ya know how when some people hugyou can't help but feeling all safe and happy? That's the general feeling when I hug him, which is often, because he's a great hugger. Jordan, man, I think somepeople were doing it in the upstairs TV room... I think I sorta walkedin on them when I was looking for my jacket. lol. whoopsy's. Oh, oh, landmark day today. I was telling my mother about drunken ange and drunken Jay, and she thought it was funny. Then she very very very casually asked me if I got drunk too. I said no, and she was like "oh, ok." Totally normal. Totally fine. Totally accepting and calm and collected. So so strange.


AH!!! I'm getting an exchange student.
Tuesday.

This tuesday.

I'm scared, I'm nervous. She'll be here for a year. For a freakin year!! What if I hate her? She's from Hong Kong. what if she doesn'tlike me or my friends? what if she becomes a total cling on or something. I need my alone time and my alone with friends time... But, on the other hand, I'll get summer freedom, extended, because I'll have someone with me. But I'll have someone with me.

I've come to think maybe I'm afraid of change. Or at least quite hesitant of it. I find that instead of thinking about what great things might be beyond the horizon, I think about what great things are with me, and behind me. Maybe I should strive to get over that. I think I will. I shouldn't live my life in fear, nor should i be afraid that something new is going to ruin what I have that's great.

But it could.

It just occured to me that I'll be adding another asian to my household. Hahaha, my moms like "oh, ya better make sure Jordan doesn't find her. You know how he goes for the asian ones, haha."






"Halfie's, Mother. Halfie's."

;)

I am currently Fabulous
I am listening to Miss Independent (it makes me smile, oddly)