Cripes
08/31/2003 09:04 p.m.
So, the more I think about the stupid situations I get myself into, the more I think I need to change.  My friend josh told me that he thinks I'm a good person and not selfish at all.  I think I have been lef to believe wanting to form some sort of relationship with Jeff would be selfish because Phoebe doesn't want it to happen.  Is this true?  I have no idea.  And everyone says something similar to the following "He's from Washington and goes to school in Fairbanks.  Why do you want to do that to yourself?"  But shit, it's too late.  I don't control things like this, and trust me if I could, I would have been a lot smarter about a lot of things.  I never would have dated someone from Argentina.  I obviously don't have any sort of control of my sanity left, and that's all there is to it.  I'm going to see "The Elephant Man" in a few hours.  I hope it's good.  Shane is playing John Merrick and I know I'm going to cry because I always cry at sad plays/movies/tv shows/commercials.  Whatev.  I should go now, i need to shower. 
I am currently Insecure
I am listening to The fan in my laptop