enjoying my peace
07/10/2003 10:07 p.m.

wellllllllll, yes its true, I have more peace than I've ever had before.  I have this sense of God providing for me.  I have been in such a dither for most of my life about money.  One of the secrets (to me) about peace is getting to the place where I'm willing to do what God wants.  Before, rather than trust God, I would make wrong use of credit.  I felt I had too.  Now I don't care, or better, I know God will provide and I'm willing to accept what He gives.  but that is just a part of it, I'm learning what to do when I don't have God's peace. 

Sometimes I don't have God;s peace because I don't like to be insulted.  Why not?  a dumb questions but ask yourself why you don't like to be insulted.  What would happen if I never got insulted --I believe I'd have life, why?

Because somewherre in my twisted heart I think that if others love me or act loving toward me I'll have life or meaning, or peace.  The truth is that I need a faith that can have perfect peace when others disrespect me or insult me or don't like me.  When I have a faith like that it no longer matters if people don't like me or insult me.  Then I have a peace when insulted that enables me to choose the best response to honor God.  I can be quiet, or I can  answer from a quietness of heart that speaks volumns of power.  And, dear friends, when I have a faith that has peace, it enables God to get involved.

I love it, God is just blessing me with such peace in the midst of these storms.