The night of July 5th
07/07/2003 04:19 a.m.
** I'm on the couch with him, with my legs over his lap. We're in his house, although it looks nothing like his real house. My dad is in the kitchen, then he leaves. He starts to tell me how much he cares, and that he loves me so much. At this point, I am aware of the fact that we aren't together, and that he loves her. We start to kiss. We stop. We cuddle. there is a knock at the door. It's her, and Barbara, and an assortment of other boys I've never seen. They come in. He looks normal at first, but then finds more and more reason to shy away from me. She is talking giddily about something, with the boys and barbara hanging on her every word. He is hanging on her words too, and suddenly moves my legs, gets up, and sits on a chair opposite the couch, nowhere near either me or her. Suddenly, the boys and Barbara are gone, and its just us 3. She is still very happy looking and smiley. Suddenly I'm yelling "You told me you loved me! Now what? she comes in and you move away? You're ashamed now?! Who do you love?"
"I'm in love with you both!"

her expression has turned matter-of-fact

[her] "I won't take you back."
[me] "So you're in love with me too but you won't go to me because you want to be with her? Yet you still say you're in love with me? How can you say that? We were just together and happy until she came in. A knock at the door and you run from me. I can't stand it anymore!"
[her] "I can't take you back."
"I love you both."
[me] "no, you don't."
[her] "I won't."

And we face eachother in a triangle, no one touching anyone else, and we look at what has become.**

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Shoot the Moon
Norah Jones

-*-Summer days are gone too soon
You shoot the moon
and miss completely
and now you're left to face the gloom
the empty room
that once smelled sweetly.-*-

Of all the flowers you've plucked, if only
you knew the reason
why you had to each be lonely
was it just the season?

Now the fall is here again
you can't begin to give in
it's all over
and when the snow's come rolling through
you'll roll in too
with some knew lover.

Will you think of times you told me
that you knew the reason
that we had to each be lonely?
It was just the season.

Will you think of times you told me
that you knew the reason
why we had to each be lonely?
Was it just the season?
I am currently Odd
I am listening to Nothing