Letter to My Love
06/13/2003 12:59 a.m.
Dear T,
I know things have been kind of ify with us lately and I also know that it is about 90% my doing. I know you don't understand why I suddenly sprouted all of these insecurities and I know that you desperately want some answers from me. I wish so badly that I had answers to give you. I do not understand why this suddenly started. I don't remember an exact incident that started my mind running in all different directions. I do not remember an exact time that these feelings started. I also do not know exactly HOW to make them stop, but I can promise you that I will try my hardest. You are far too important to me to lose over something as silly as this. You have never given me a reason not to trust you. You have always been honest with me and I know you would never cheat on me (trust me...I am confident about that). I feel badly that you feel that this is putting a strain on our relationship...a strain on us. I never meant to make that happen. I never meant for any of this to happen. I know you feel that I compare you to my past, and perhaps I have before, and for that I am sorry. I know you are not M and I know that you genuinely love and care for me (How else could you have put up with me for an entire year? lol:) ). You see...for as many things that I am insecure about...there are also so many things that I am completely confident about. I am confident about my feelings for you...and even your feelings for me. I am confident that we WILL work through this, because I will not let such a great guy slip away from me. No one has ever made me feel the way that you do...and yes sometimes I feel like I can't get enough of you. I know you like having your own space and I am the type to want to be around you 24/7. It could be because I am a girl and you are a guy... or it could go further than that. Who knows? Honey...I wish I could make you believe that I trust you...and I wish you could truely understand what you mean to me. You are my world and I'll be damned if I am going to let someone who is that important away slip away. I won't. I promise you...I will work on my insecurities...I will get better...I promise...I love you more than you know!

--M
I am currently Helpless
I am listening to Dad Snoring