Nelly Furtado
04/19/2003 03:41 a.m.
A lot of people make fun of me because I am a huge fan of Nelly Furtado. But hey, she writes her own music, and plays guitar, which is much much more than I can say for most pop stars. Plus, so much of her stuff is healing. After the whole Marcos incident, I listened to "...On the Radio" about 4,000 times. The main point of that song is "stay true to myself." I think that's really important. I never really saw the point in meeting someone, and pretending to be a different Corrie than I was so that they would like me. Eventually, they are gonna see me, and then what? You can't pretend forever. So I guess I just want to say that to anyone with a broken heart, listening to her will help you. Another thing: people will tell you how to act towards your ex. "Don't call, don't e-mail, break off contact completely!" Sooooo much easier said than done. I was an e-mail PSYCHO! 4,5,6 times a day. Not that his replies made me feel good, they made my stomach turn and my heart ache, but I couldn't stop hurting myself. I longed for him to come crawling back and claim his hideous mistake. Nope. Another thing, ignorance is bliss. I knew his e-mail password, so I checked it a lot. That's how I found out he was in love with someone else, the WORST thing you can ever find out about someone you are in love with. It's all good now. I mean, he's gone, outta my life, and that's just how it has to be. I probably would have gotten here without Nelly Furtado, but trust me, when you are so low that all you can do is look at the micorwave and cry, you will hang on to anything. And her music is a great handle.
I am currently Depressed
I am listening to The luau downstairs at work