My Belief in.... something....
04/18/2003 05:54 a.m.
Somewhat calm and put together now, I realize that I've been pumping out poems like mad. I don't blame you fine folk if you dont readem all, just cuz it's probably a little overwhelming looking at someones library and seeing and army of green triangles, lol. I've been looking around for something new lately. Sorting through various peoples librarys, just lookin around, sometimes rating or commenting. I'm looking for something to inspire me, and I find pieces of that here and there, but not in one poem, as I'd like. Ah ideologies (I might not know how to spell it but I thinkI know the word I'm talking about)... i'm looking for everything in one piece. Maybe I'll write that poem one day. A poem that'll sum up everything and the sky and God.
Is it anti Christian if I say that I believe that God is in all of us and that we are God, in some aspects? I've tried to explain this but it hasn't worked well so far. Now I'm not any real religion but I believe in something bigger than I am, and in a way equal to my self. I think I think of God as one's potential. Like, people say they are letting God guide them, but when I let "God" guide me, I'm just letting my true self out. trying to get away from the distractions and do what is right. Not that everything is black and white like that, but thats an attempt at an example. I think we have the power to do things we don't even fathom, and that the idea of "God" is a somewhat crude way of looking at what I believe to be something deeper. I'm not out to bash anyone, I'm just venting my brain. What I mean by crude is that anyone can imagine God as a higher power, like some sort of ball of light or energy or essence above us, looking down and watching us. It has occured to me that heaven and hell are in this world, and that you make your own heaven and hell. What worse hell is there then being entirely consumed by hatred of another person? and, for example, what better heaven then to be free of such afflictions? I believe your actions DO affect whether you go to "heaven" or "hell", but in a more tangible sense than I was taught to believe. I think that we are our own god, but not in the sense that we are greater than the whole. We are each a part, not one greater than another. But each of our daily lives effect the daily lives of those around us, and so put together we as a plant and a universe and a material being are God.
Am I making sense? Oh hell you probably stopped reading a long time ago. Anyways, I'm not out to bash Christians or Christian beliefs in anyway, I'm just offering my personal view on things. I try to make sense out of pieces of information I get from the world. I guess it's kind of like the poetry thing. I don't think any one person or organized belief has the answer.
I am currently Odd
I am listening to Natalie Cole