I Hate When I Upset People
03/21/2003 04:04 a.m.
T and I got in a fight tonight... I think I was just being myself...again...and starting a fight over nothing...again. I feel bad. I really do... T is so good to me...better than anyone else ever has been. I don't understand why that is never enough... B told me to step out of the girlfriend role for a minute and step into the "Rational Mel" role and think about things... Like "How often does T get to see his friends?" Almost every time he is home "And where are you when he is home?" Well he sees me one day and his friends the other... "Who does he spend the majority of his time with?" Me... "Mel he should spend more time with you becuase you are his girlfriend, but you have to give him time to just be a guy...be with his buds... he needs that." B is right...she also pointed out how stressful the long distance thing is on us to begin with and the fact that he has other people he wants to see...even if I don't get to see him that often...I can't prevent him from having his own life... After all, as he would say... "We are not married"... I guess marriage will never be an option with him... Not that I want it now b/c it is far too soon...but I was hoping for a future with him...someday...
I am currently Gloomy
I am listening to Stuff About The War on TV (Give Peace A Chance!)