I have stopped LIVING – 2nd of March 2003
03/03/2003 04:34 p.m.

I have stopped LIVING.

I have STOPPED STOPPING.

My external is not conducive, with irritants scattered all along my path, wanting their deaths in the disguise of their lives at my cost, leading me no where at all.

It wasn’t much different either before. The only difference lies in the number of irritants, which has gone up. And they are all on the KILL.

I know, only intellectually at this point of time, that I can deal with them if I can deal with my life, that is, if I can deal with the TIME. The TIME, which is never present despite its presence all the time. IF….and yes, it’s a big if…if I can be PRESENT.

AM has no meaning without its AMNESS

And I can only be I AM in I am’s PRESENCE.

So, it’s not them who are on the KILL. Its ME, every moment, in my absence, on the KILL.

I am not LIVING.

And I want to LIVE.