in a hurry
01/26/2003 07:53 p.m.
I need to go get food... I haven't had an actual meal since Friday so I'm a little worried about blood sugar. But it felt necessary to post a journal entry since my last one was SO negative.

I was with Eric from about 8:30 PM to about 3:30 AM yesterday. Or today. Yeah. That's a lot of time to spend with one person. We watched In the Mouth of Madness (which I HATE Matt McLean for letting us watch... I said "NO monsters" urgh), Reservoir (did I spell that right?) Dogs and Friday. And we made chocolate chip cookies. He burned the first batch. Boys. But the weird thing was, I called my sweetie to say I couldn't talk and he was off to a girl's room to watch a movie. A girl who likes him. And when we got off the phone, I walked over to Eric, took a bite of a cookie and a sip of milk (he didn't know I don't drink milk) and said "My boyfriend is watching a movie tonight. With a girl. A girl who likes him even." Eric's response?

"How ironic."

I just drank my horrible milk and pretended it wasn't said. At about 1:30 he tried to make me dance which is something he's been trying to do since I got down here. I don't dance... in front of people. (Only to Spice Girls, alone in my room so I can feel good about myself, right Koye?) So there was Donnell Jones and Musiq Soulchild (or however that's spelled) but, you know, I just can't dance. Things ensued, sort of. A little dancing maybe. But not anything good. At least on my part.

I don't know. It made me sad. It always does. I have a good time with him but I hate being away from Tommy. When he told me he was watching a movie with Jess, my initial thought was "what ARE we?" - a freaking couple who dates other people more than each other. It can't be helped. And I trust that he's not interested in Jess. And I'm not interested in Eric. So it's not like *cheating* is this big fear. But it's sad when you spend so much time with other people and extremely minimal time together.

That's why I didn't talk to you, Koye. I would have, honestly. But I was with Eric. I'll call today and we'll chat. I'm looking forward to it.

Now I'm really going to need food. Passing out is not a favorite activity of mine.

Hey, you, all my friends who are in a bad/sad mood, CHEER UP. I love you. Really.

I am currently Tired
I am listening to someone's bass again