Insomnia
11/25/2002 09:37 a.m.

Help the insomnia go away of all the things in my head. It rapes me of my sleep and starve me to incredible hunger. This depression has gotten worse when I was knocked down innocently by a good friend. The loneliness returns with horror, dragging me deeper and deeper into this trench of sadness. I wanted to cry tonight. Cry like I have never cried before, but I didn't. And though I won't. I don't see why. My emotions play with my head and torment me more and more everyday. Happiness lurks but very faint, so my friends tell me. Where is my happiness? They are out there. My dream, my smiles, my laughs, my joys, they are there. "Keep on pushing", I say to myself everyday. It will come. It will soon come. But only that day will show me how happy I can be. Until then, I stay uncalmed, and continued suffering and pushing until that day arrives.