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09/23/2022 11:02 p.m.
Ok
I don't believe
in Vampires

I don't believe
in Guardian Angels
until I get on ene...no

I believe
that aliens
walk among us

Are there "walking Dead'...

might be
I don't get out much

and if I looked in a mirror;
I?d probably scream

Who is that Oerson?

I believe that
life is just a fleeting moment;
but precious nonetheless

I need to start living...
again
I am currently Overwhelmed

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Who Care?
04/02/2015 07:21 p.m.
Who Cares
about me?

I need surgery
a few people know

No one REALLY cares

Wrote to my sister
NO response

Told one of my kids
NO response

Told a friend
she called
she cares

To tell the truth
I don't know that
I truly care

I believe in Fate;
in karma

I'm so depressed
I cry a lot

I guess if I don't care
how can I expect
any one to care

I am currently Blue
I am listening to my heart beat

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Happy Birthday!
05/11/2007 01:23 p.m.
Today is my Mom's birthday. She would have been 83, but passes one month ago yesterday. I lit a candle, even though Jewish law prohibits it for 11 months after death.At about 5 AM, I was standing in my kitchen, crying as I lit the candle. I sand "Happy Birthday" very softly and I feel that she heard me.

She will never know how much I love her or how much she is missed. I wishI could "get it together", but I'm having trouble coming to grips with the concept of being an orphan(even at my age)

There will never be another person like her; not in my life. She was a ROCK- but I know now that even rocks crumble with time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA!
I am currently Depressed
I am listening to nothing

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DEPRESSED!
11/23/2006 02:25 p.m.
It's Thanksgiving- the one day of the year when my kids, my sister, my MIL and Mom are together. This year, for reasons beyond my control, my husband and I are alone. We're very depressed- we miss our kids and want them here, but this year, it just is not to be.

It has become a tradition that my daughters and I go shopping "Black Friday". We get up at 3 am, go get some newspapers, clip store coupons and go the 50 miles to the mall. It isn't the shopping; it's the time we spend together, laughing and talking. We're always home way before noon. We spend some money, have some fun, and enjoy each others company.

I WILL MISS THAT!!!!

Maybe after Christmas, maybe next year, but not this year. It's not their fault, nor is it mine.

I'M VERY DEPRESSED! I MISS MY KIDS!
I am currently Depressed
I am listening to my own tears

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Mother's Day 2006
05/14/2006 11:33 p.m.
My TWO daughters both came to visit. I was totally surprised and totally thrilled. My middle daughter who I have been fighting with took me for a badly needed haircut. Since my brain surgery 3 years ago, I have not had a haircut. it is long and scragily and not at all attractive.

The woman who cut my hair had an attractive shortish curly haircut, and my daughter talked me into it. Everyone says it looks good....it'll take me time. i've had long hair for the last 30 years. EVERYONE told me it looks better, so I guess it does.

I am so relieved that my daughter and I am again talking that I would have let her shaved my head!!!!!

My youngest daughter came a few hours later, followed bby my sister. We all went out to eat. Even though I could not eat much, I was THRILLED to be with my kids!

All in all, it was the best Mother's Day I ever had!

My kids just left. I miss them already, but they both were here and that's ALL that counts.

They gave me an OldNavy gift card.

I have named my haircut "Pam's Revenge" after my daughter. It probably is a nice haircut; i just need to get used to it!

THANKS KIDS!!!!!!!
I am currently Better
I am listening to West Wing!

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LAST ENTRY
05/02/2006 12:04 a.m.
This is my last entry to this journal. My daughter read it today and is not talking to me. i wrote some pretty mean things about her in here, never thinking that she might read it.

I called her to apoligize. I was hysterical (I STILL am) She said that she could not accept my apology because I was not sorry enough.....

I was mad; I was venting and now I've lost yet another child.
I am currently Depressed

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