Dream
03/21/2007 01:03 a.m.
I had another one about you.
Nothing special happened,
nothing ever does.
But I woke up,
and I felt this excruciating pain,
a more dreadful feeling than waking up from that nightmare
where I was held prisoner.
That one felt better
because I was not your captive.
Every dream about you is a nightmare.
Please stop it,
please take me back.
I could go on forever listing all
my pathetic woes,
stupid clichés
and cynical confessions...
but all I really want to say is
what hurts me the most
is that I woke up
and I realized how
goddamned much I miss you.

And I never even had you.
I am currently Blue

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this is strange, but I love it
02/06/2007 01:57 a.m.




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blah
11/08/2006 09:31 p.m.
I want to write a new poem...something that will just blow everyone away. Problem is, I have no inspiration whatsoever.
I am currently Bummed
I am listening to de Lovely

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moolah
10/14/2006 03:52 a.m.
Gimme the green
lover, give me everything
gimme gimme
I need some things
because I have nothing
nothing, that would be of any value
to you
so gimme some green
gimme gimme anything

Sometimes it would be nice if I was rich...I don't measure my value on the amount of money I have, but society does.. agh I'm tired.
I am currently Tired

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I love this
10/08/2006 04:03 a.m.


I'm going to attempt to write a thesis paper on The Simpsons.
I am currently Somber

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yeah...
09/21/2006 01:24 a.m.
Me and you are likely the same.
We both hate the pretentious game...
but besides what they say,
I refuse to relent;
we are both incompetent.

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miles to go before I sleep
09/19/2006 08:18 p.m.
Two sad and lonely people coming together to make each other happy. I don't know about anyone else, but that concept seems really logical to me.

Maybe that's the thing about love though; it's completely irrational, but you gotta love it when you find it.

& screw hormones! Screw em!

Take a mix of fantasy, a bit of a dreamer, loneliness, vulnerability...add them together and look for something deeper. What do you have? What can you do? I cannot do much although I'd like to. I know sometimes it's hard for people to see, but I really I wish that the concept of love would notice me.
I am currently Bleh

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here's looking at you, kid
08/18/2006 07:26 a.m.
I think it's kind of funny how you can grow up believing in certain principles and values...and how when you meet different people, your viewpoint slightly changes so you eventually have a different outlook on things from when you started. Yet, if you look back, you start to remember how you used to think...how you used to look at things and how you used to feel and act...Or maybe that's just me. I've been looking through old photo albums from my childhood and all the change just blows my mind. I guess we shouldn't really think about change too much because it can be a little bit strong to handle (all the time). -shrugs- I don't know.

If you just take all the influences you've had in life, all the people you've met and still have yet to meet, all the things you hear/see/say/read/do...and take that all away from you...what do you have left? Do you have you? I saw this icon once (and I know it's only a fucking icon, but bear with me) that said something along the lines of "Nothing about me is original. I am everyone I ever met." I don't remember it exactly. And while I disagree with that statement, it does have strong points. We are all influenced our whole lives...everything I see and everyone I met have influenced me, but does that mean they make me me? Perhaps they help show us who we really are (because maybe we forget along the way), but I actually think that we always know...I believe this because when I look at old pictures, I look different and my family and friends and everyone look and act different, but I still know them and look at them the same way. My sister went from curly little blonde girl to independent college girl, but she's still the sister I know. Of course a bunch of things influenced her to make her what she is now, but she's still her. And I'm still me. And you're still you. Maybe this is the thinking of one who believes in souls...as in, my soul has always been there and therefore, I am always me. -shrugs- Again, who really knows? I sure don't. All I know is that I am tired... and I wanted to write down what I was thinking about.
I am currently Tired
I am listening to sprinklers

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meh
06/28/2006 01:23 a.m.
give me a break

and not a piece of that kit kat bar
I am currently Bad

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little darling, it's been a long and lonely winter
05/23/2006 07:20 p.m.
I want to lie on the grass and just drop everything to feel the peace of nature. Then I want to decompose.
I am currently Gloomy

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