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Seasonal diatribe...
12/08/2005 06:52 p.m.

Well, it's that time of year again - I know the season of goodwill is upon us when people wearing faith on their sleeves complain about Christmas having become so distastefully commercial. Naturally this has no political corollaries - so, politics it is then :)
Democracies essentially enshrine the right and ability to choose, and yes, our choices are generally governed by the economy, stupid. Both UK & US electorates have consequently been blessed with devoutly Christian political leaders espousing, in the finest traditions of 'western civilisation', political philosophies that promote a (selectively) free-market economy, facilitating implementation of policies that both depend upon, and foster, continuous escalation in the generation of 'wealth'. Validation is achieved by extolling virtues associated with 'meritocracies', which define 'merit' in terms of the ability to contribute to an ever-expanding economy, fueled by acquisitiveness - materialism. To some, this may appear to undermine fundamental 'Christian' values. However, salvation is at hand... dissonance is judiciously reconciled by employing the 'secular' approach which, superficially, embraces multicultural society and respects the principle of 'freedom of worship', but which is actually a mechanism enabling us to segregate spiritual values and beliefs from mundane attitudes and behaviours.
And no-one is safe...democracy, the church of commerce preaching freedom, is being exported as rapidly as it can be sold. Even where congregations have consistently rejected the promotional material, capitalism has already been unofficially annointed as the new 'saviour'.
This vendetta against Christmas - what is that about? Scapegoating I guess - merely a symptom of the choices we collectively make, a microcosm of motivation. Well, what else would you expect a godless virago like me to say?...
Ok - diatribe over...I have to go decorate myself for public consumption, shops are closing, and there is something I really must acquire, today, this minute, something I didn't realize I needed until it appeared, vision-like, on my beloved new widescreen, slimline LCD TV...

I am currently listening to: Doll Parts - Hole - The Storm, in association with...[something puerile]

I am currently Obsessive

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Yesterday I broke my own rules - probably not for the first time. I was gratuitously unkind, derogatory to someone - no, not even to them, but about them. I decided I knew enough about this person, based on minimal information, to justify my cynical attitude. So easy to do - and today, I feel like shit, yet to be wiped. It's on my record - not having any religious convictions, but what better way to perform 'atonement' than to excrete my malaise onto a 'journal confessional'. Yeh - I feel totally absolved of all responsibility for my actions, and I've hardly broken a sweat.

Assumptions - can't live with them, can't function without them...

I am currently listening to: Processed Beats - Kasabian - The Storm, in association with (so I've just been informed)...'concrete underpants'
how appropriate

4 people died as a result of coronary thrombosis whilst participating in 'The Great North Run' in September this year. Nevertheless, I remain convinced that SPORT IS GOOD FOR YOU.

So, I decided to take up surfing - salt, sunburn, sharks...all the eSsentials for a shallow sabbatical. Not, perhaps, as spiritually uplifting as an evening of unbridled passion with the night mare of one's dreams, but still an acceptable (& more accessible) substitute. Inevitably, the experience was a littoral anti-climax...in essence, I'm a complete wreck, languishing somewhere off the coast of exhaustion. I guess, in retrospect, I can attribute this to having woken up every time I was thrown off my board.

Despite this reverse in enutrof, I remain undaunted. My next rapid eye movement will plunge me into the unfathomable depths of marine equestrianism, the stuff of which memories are made.

Back to the wall...

Laura Doom
WhileTrue News
Everloop
(somewhere beyond the phaneron)

I am the light
without a shadow
of a doubt

I see everything
in blackened white
through sleepless eyes

I breathe the fire
of hopeless aspiration
to the point of exhaustion

I am a shadow
of my former self
seeking questions

nothing of integrity
is revealed
by my reflections

We crave the shade
that seeks extinction
by illumination

We please ourselves
the blinded leading the blind
into the eclipse

I am the cycle
re-inventing the will
not to seek

conflict

i am currently vacant, though not disengaged
I am listening to the circular sounds of a PSU fan (one of which I'm not)

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going nowhere
12/06/2003 11:54 a.m.
Watching too many films that don't achieve anything but the passing of time.
Three exceptions...
Bowling for Columbine
Paying It Forward (minus the candle-light melodrama)
The Life of David Gale

Mood - detached
I am listening to tourniquet - headswim - despite yourself

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i don't know
11/22/2003 06:25 p.m.
much...neither do I understand what I do know. Not really surprising that I appear to be misunderstood, or am I just one more thing I don't understand?
I am currently Alienated
I am listening to JackOffJill

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still revolving
10/25/2003 01:01 p.m.

I am currently Dumb
I am listening to Dumb - Nirvana - In Utero

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