Graduation....
06/15/2003 08:41 a.m.
It's hard to believe that after 13 years in the public education system my high school career is finally over. It didn't hit me until tonight. It means so much that I never thought about before. Everything has been so structured for so long that it's insane to think about anything differently. But it seems that a part of me is missing as I bid farewell to the halls that have been my home for so many years. I can't help but run over in my head all the memories that have been part of the run of the mill existence of my life but will soon become the most cherished of memories. I can see the ones I will tell my children someday. Man it's been some times though. I've learned so much but not enough. I've learned important things though like how to be a friend and how to listen to other people. I learned how to be diplomatic and how to exude an aura of confidence so that noone wants to mess with me because my spirit is too strong. it's crazy cuz I tend to attract people but the people that know me deep down are the ones that will still be around through and after this transition.
I am currently Nostalgic
I am listening to Here's To The Nights - Eve 6

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Sitting...
05/05/2003 08:33 p.m.
Ten minutes to go til' block D on Monday...Sitting in the library feeling evil...So I'm with this new girl (Trish) and we like being together so much...I feel like I'm corrupting her though. So evil..how older guys can do that. I don't want to be that guy at all. I'm not that guy. Thre's just so many resposibilities when you take a girls heart into your hands. Maybe I'm just being pessimistic..I don't know..but maybe I'm just feeling a little too old. haha never thought that would happen oh well when 18 is staring you in the face you start to realize your really not a kid anymore. Well 5 minutes left 'til P.E. trish is one floor above me ona different computer. I wonder what she's thinking. Odd how thats all I can think about lately. I wonder wheer she is, i wonder what she's doing. oh well simple curiosity or a mindless obsession... I can't quite make up my mind. Odd how the world can turn on you suddenly and you see a whole different side to people and places and ordinary things. The road goes ever on sweeping me from my doorstep..I guess I'm just trying to keep my feet.
I am currently Evil
I am listening to Phish

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Selling The Drama...
05/01/2003 01:44 a.m.
Now that the pressure is off and the decision is made. What the hell am I going to write about? Will I be reduced to pathetic sappy love poems? Please tell me it shall not be so. What if all my creative instincts stemmed from this singular internal conflict? Or maybe I should just start writing and pray that love-struck poetry doesn't flow from my fingertips. Anyway, My recent poetry has reached its conclusion in the form of the exit of my girlfriend for the past 11 months and the entrance of a flame that has been burning in the corner of my vision for quite some time. I feel like such an asshole. And now my ex has asked me to wait for a little while before I date my new girl officialy. I can't wait...I said I would...but I'm completely head over heels for this girl. It hurts her to see us. But it hurts me not to be with the girl that I love. I hate sneaking around...it sucks. When I kiss her bombs go off in my brain. I can't stop smiling when she's around. Everyone thinks they got the whole story figured out but they haven't got a clue. Only we know the truth.
I am currently Alienated
I am listening to My thoughts...

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I'm Me...Me Be...
04/21/2003 06:38 p.m.
If anyones interested. I'll start off witha little background information. My full name is Jordan Paul Davies. I am 17 years old and currently living at home with my father and his girlfriend. My mother lives in Victoria and my sister has moved out of my moms house and gone off to study at the university of Calgary. I was born in New West Minster where I lived for the first two years of my life my father was a truck driver so he was rarely home. I was raised for several years by my mother and her brother Derek. His influence on me was obviously profound because my first words were "Hockey Puck". And my first sentence was "He shoots, he scores". In 1987 our family moved to Cranbrook BC where my father was a preacher in a local four-square church while driving trucks for various companies and at one point managing a U-haul company. Due to the stresses of family and two jobs my father suffered a mental breakdown and was institutionalized with Bipolar Disorder or Manic Depression. This invariably led to the break-up of my parents marriage and I found myself bounced from house to house over the next several months. My parents decided however to stay together for the kids. My mother decided that she needed to further her education and enrolled at the East Kootenay Community College. This led to our moving to Victoria BC so she could go to UVIC my father also enrolled in school and began taking classes at Camosun College. He also later transfered to UVIC. My maother was travelling to various places on practicums and this envariably led to her discovering things about herself so once again my parents seperated for good. I lived in student housing on the UVic campus for 6 years. That's a long ass time. However in the 4th grade I discovered a passion that has continued to this day. I began playing league football and I found it to be one the most rewarding things I had ever done. In junior high I found myself a social outcast because our school was in one of the most upscale neighbourhoods in town. For 3 years I hung out with the "uncool" group and eneded up smoking Marijuana almost every day. My life was turning quickly sour as I began drinking and going to parties and ended up being arrested and sentenced to community service. Needless to say picking up trash on the side of the road is not the most self-esteem boosting experiences. I was all set to go into senior high at Mt. Doug Secondary School when my dad topld me he was considering taking a job in Nanaimo. Needless to say I was livid. But on considering this I told him the only way I would move to Nanaimo would be if I could go to John Barsby Secondary School. So I eneded up moving to Nanaimo and going to the school of my choice. I chose this school because they had won the football championships the year before. This school is the best thing to happen to me. I'm Popular throughout all groups in the school. I have a girlfriend. I also have other girls chasing me which is nice. I also started pursuing Stage and Acting as more than a hobby. So here I am today. Finally happy. Finally secure.
I am currently Reflective
I am listening to My Computer's Hum

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