Black Day
07/22/2003 10:22 p.m.
I have to leave soon to go to a funeral. When I was in jr High, I made up this joke that was "You can't spell Funeral without 'fun!'" Now that I'm actually faced with it though, it's not so fun. I went to my great Uncle's funeral a few years ago. He had been sick for a long time, and it really wasn't such a huge surprise when he died. The funeral I'm going to today is for my sister's boyfriend's brother, Matt. He was going to be 21 in a few weeks, that's the worst part about it. He was so fucking young, life hadn't really even started yet. It makes me wonder what I'm doing. I'm 21, and I'm just going to school and partying my life away. I haven't done anything great yet, and maybe it's something people have to hurry up and do before it's too late. It was ok until I put on black clothes to get ready. Now it just seems a little too real. The thing is, I feel guilty because I had only met Matt once or twice, and I don't know if I should be this down about it. I mean, am I just faking it? Am I? Should it bother me this much? I don't know. I just hate seeing Ben's family in so much pain and it makes me think about what I would do if one of my sister's died. I have never lost anyone really close to me and I don't think I could handle it. Anyway, that's all for now. Phoebe's scheduled to come cheer me up later today.
I am currently Blue
I am listening to Fiona Apple-pale september

Comments (0)

Last Night
07/20/2003 06:48 a.m.
I said "We should make a water balloon out of a condom...We have to wait until the two boys leave." (Thrusts head in general direction of two boys, Ivan and Kerry.)
"Dude," she said, "There are three boys." (Thrusts head at Shane.)
"No Dude," I said, "He's cool."

"Quit twitching around!" I said.
"Wouldn't that suck if someone was really trying to dance and you said that to them?" She asked.
"I would say 'I'm just doing to humpty-hump, step off!'" Ivan said.

My molecoles get smallecoles and now we hop on pop.
I am currently Cool
I am listening to Cynthia on the phone

Comments (0)

Going somewhere BETTER
07/16/2003 11:11 p.m.
I'm going to Seattle and California! Wohoo! I'm excited.
I am currently Upbeat
I am listening to Weezer, waiting on you

Comments (0)

The Joy of Weird Books
07/16/2003 04:16 a.m.
Yesterday Randi, my awesome neighbor, gave me "The Joy of Sex." Before then, I'd of course heard of this book, but never experienced it for myself. I only had time to flip through it, but it was pretty amusing. I mean, it just talked about sex so frankly which is odd. It was talking about all these things that people whisper and giggle to each other about and acting like they are perfectly normal. Which made me realize that sex is perfectly normal. I am 21 and I am still programmed into thinking it's bad, when it isn't. Obviously, there are circumstances when it is bad. It can be used as a weapon and devestate people, but generally, it's healthy, and relaxing. Not that I should talk. I'm not getting any. I probably never will again. Also, today a girl who always buys coffee from me at work told me that I will find my souldmate with a shaved head. When I meet people now, I can tell how superficial they are. If they judge me by my 1/2 inch hair, it's not my problem. So it's kind of nice to see people how they really are when I first meet them, as opposed to people who play nice for a few days or dates, and then the asshole emerges. Anyway, Randi's here talking about her bathroom door, so I'm off.
I am currently Good
I am listening to Flaming Lips

Comments (0)

Private Chriswell
07/15/2003 10:58 p.m.
I was talking to my mom on the phone yesterday and she told me my sister's boyfriend's brother died early yesterday morning. He joined the army last year in April and was scheduled to go off to Afghanistan and find and kill Osama Bin Ladin. My sister said he was certain he was going to die. So when my mom told me he was killed, I thought she meant in combat. I was really surpirsed to find out that it was a car accident in Pennsylvania. I feel so bad for my sister. But I feel worse for her boyfriend, Ben, and his family. It's just such a surprise.
On a lighter note, I am going to Seattle and California in a few weeks. I'm really excited. I've never spent any time in Seattle, but I've been there a bunch of times, well, in the airport at least. Yes. Anyway, I am really out of it and should go.

I am currently Bummed
I am listening to Humming freezer

Comments (0)

Summer Goals
07/14/2003 04:07 a.m.
1. Smash lightbulbs on side of Apartment building.
2. Squish a loaf of bread.
3. Light spraypaint on fire.
4. Shoot a car with a nail gun.
5. Make water balloons out of condoms.
6. Throw a computer off the roof.
7. Throw the campus center popcorn machine over the balcony in the campus center.
8. Break a beer bottle and fight someone with it.
9. Throw eggs at a house
10. Break a mirror.
11. Shave someone's arm.
12. Smash a pie in Tasha's face (Tasha, if you are reading this, Cynthia is the one who said to smash it in your face.)
13. My virginity grew back and I need to kill it again.

I would like readers to note that this entry was written under the influence and should not be taken seriously.
I am currently Upbeat
I am listening to Rolling Stones

Comments (0)

Dohanyoztom!
07/14/2003 03:35 a.m.
Dohanyoztom a zold cigi, es most hulye vagyok. I like to write in Hungarian. Anyway, Cynthia, ask me what this means later, I promise it's so funny. Bye
I am currently Divine
I am listening to Cowboy Junkies, Sweet jane

Comments (0)

I feel weird
07/13/2003 11:22 p.m.
Yep
I am currently Weird
I am listening to Dandy Warhols

Comments (0)

Brown eyed girl.
07/13/2003 03:34 a.m.
What a great song, am I wrong? No. Don't argue with me. What an strange 24 hours I've had. Sometimes I wish I had the power to delete memories. Let me just say, Phoebe was beligerent and vomited many a time. I hosed the puke off the driveway at her parents' house. I figured that if I was that drunk, and vomiting, I wouldn't want my parents to find out by finding a nice pile of vomit. I took care of her today too, making broth, tea, etc. I really love Phoebe more than I have ever loved a friend I have. I'm so comfortable around her. She's not the nicest drunk girl, but for some reason, I can tolerate the rudeness when it's coming from her. She's practically like my sister. She demanded I kiss her on the lips last night, and I was laughing so hard, I couldn't pucker my lips. It was hilarious. I guess that's what happens after 4 long island ice teas. I only had one and was pretty buzzed. Also, he boyfriend proposed to her while she was drunk. I was a little freaked out by that to say the least. I mean, I love Sam to death, and I want them to be together forever, it was just so shocking. But at least now I get to pick out a fabulous ring. Princess cut, or course. I will just live vicariously through her. Anyway, I think I'm sunburned, but just a little. I feel feverish, but I also only got about 5 hours sleep. I'm out like trout.
I am currently Weird
I am listening to Robbie Williams-Rock DJ

Comments (0)

Bathroom stalls
07/11/2003 04:17 p.m.
Cynthia and I were just talking and I began to discuss my favorite university bathroom stall. It brought out lots of weird human habits. For example, in the Campus center, I ONLY use the second stall in the upstairs bathroom. I never use the first stall in any public bathroom because I feel that too many people probably use it and so I assume it must be germier than the other stalls. Cynthia admitted that she also doesn't use the first stall, but couldn't give a reason. If I use the downstairs bathroom in the campus center, I use any stall (of course, excluding the first.) But why do people do this? I also hate it when I am in the stall having a nice relaxing pee, and someone comes in and goes in one of the stalls next to me. Why would they do this? I don't want to pee next to someone. I used to wait until everyone left the bathroom because I didn't want anyone to HEAR me pee. Now, it that bizarre or what? Anyway, I was pretty relieved to know that Cynthia does the same thing. She said only uses the big stall snow because at one of her last jobs, all the other doors were broken and it was the only one you could use. Also, she likes the extra room. But how much room do you need to pee? I mean, it's not like you do high kicks or something. Anyway, random thoughts for a random day.
I am currently Witty
I am listening to Weezer, hash pipe

Comments (0)

Next 10 Entries - Previous 10 Entries