Someone hit rewind, I think I missed something somewhere.
04/28/2005 10:24 a.m.
I don't think of you
(very often) anymore.

Mornings are spent sleeping in-
dreaming dreams that You no longer fill.

I'd like to think that
I just became immune to missing you..
But my heart knows the truth.

How you no longer move me
or cause me to wonder where you are
what you're doing, or who you're doing it with.

On tuesday I mentioned how
I don't see much of you anymore,
in my dreams or otherwise.

I remarked on how you maybe should be a little worried.

And you changed the subject.

But I can't help but feel out of place, somehow, still.
I know nothing other,
than How to miss You-

So how am I supposed to act,
if I no longer do.


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I cried when you didn't want me-
and now I'm crying because I don't want you.

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I look terrrible ehjebweuiew
04/03/2005 01:36 a.m.

I messed up my nose yesterday, snowboarding. theres a big fucking gash in it. do you know how hard it is to get blood out of your jacket though? :\

By the way, oxyclean? yeah that doesn't work. oh, and it's probably going to scar. but I hope not :(




I am currently Sexy

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hghghsdhjsdjsdhj !!
03/31/2005 01:22 a.m.


the one day I don't log in I get POTD.



I think Pathetic is trying to tell me something.
but anyhow.

thank you, whoever nominated me.
because this is indeed very cool.
I am listening to :D

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no idea. happy birthday. things were different last year.
03/22/2005 10:41 a.m.


There's skeleton in my closet.
I lay in bed and smell burning flesh in my dreams,
pressing a piece of your cheek to mine in the dark.

at this time last year I sucked your bones dry,
licking the marrow from my lips.
I can still taste you everywhere, on everything.
sometimes I can't help myself.
human emotion is futile. I told you this.

We do nothing but fight, and love, and fuck
and do it over again. sometimes I can't help myself.
you break my heart and I returned the favor.
I'm sorry if it hurt you any. I did it for you.

I have a skeleton in my closet.
when the lights fall dim I hold him close.


I am listening to Fear before the march of flames

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the ground was further away than previously expected
03/05/2005 01:15 p.m.

patient in critial condition.

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Tomorrow will be different, but the same as always. I know.
03/04/2005 08:15 a.m.


Set me up.
this is a fall I'm willing to take
when it meant tonight with you.

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Amelia is my muse.
02/25/2005 09:46 a.m.


Amelia is empty.
I stuff her throat with my second-rate words,
knowing she'll discard them with obvious disgust.

Amelia bathes in embalming liquid.
I worry about the way her bones are visible, though.
and even more so, how she refuses to fill the spaces.

Amelia's mouth is a blue line.
she watches on as I spit up blood
"I need this", I tell her desperately.

Amelia does nothing but smile.



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This is what I'm doing for Valentines Day.
02/06/2005 02:20 a.m.

all day, zombie movies.
booze...lots of it.
good food.
anyone who comes wearing red or pink gets the shit kicked out of them.

it'll be fun. my place, sweets. <3

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Rough draft 01.
01/13/2005 06:43 a.m.


I read words and
try to close my earsound,
 I must focus, I must..
on these syllables and sentences

but instead; blue retina
flutters down
and music fills my heart.



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A softer world
12/24/2004 09:31 a.m.



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