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was there truth
by Adrian Fosteryou say you knew what you wanted
at the start
but the way you treated me
although you'll say it was good
is one of the reasons
we're apart
you did treat me well
at times
that i cannot deny
but was it all the sex you speak of
or all the things you bought me
candy for my eyes
i don't know if you know this
i think about "us" still
a never-ending memory
a part of my life
i could never put behind me
no matter how strong my will
i know i broke your heart
you broke mine too
but in the beginning
i was acting on a premise
i could not show
i really did love you
i love you still, damn you
i could never deny it
still wish that it could work
still think we're the perfect fit
i don't know what to do
you were the last person I had
to hold onto
but i try harder everyday
it's gotten easier since then
since things are going my way
and your husband's jealousy
grows stronger to his dismay
this is finished
i have nothing more
to say
07/29/2016
Author's Note: Lisa...if you had given us an honest chance, instead of just grasping for opportunities to make yourself feel better about who you were and what you were going through and look better because you were with a younger man, we would've made a great couple. Despite your marriage, I would've been willing to wait for you. But, although you were so "adamant" in the beginning that you did not want to be married any longer and deal with the kids, you didn't want to lose the security of what you were already tied down with and you pulled the wool right over my eyes without a second thought. You never had ANY intention of us becoming a real thing. I'm curious as to what you told the others after me. Not about me, because I'm sure it wasn't true, but about your situation with your husband. Speaking of him,,he'd better count his blessings and say his prayers. He plays "big balls" when he's walking around with the kids,,not that they'd be of any help to him. He'd better check himself..100. Pathetic he is. Lol,,the boys are a close second. Telling me that they're going to start weight-lifting so they can get muscles and then flexing in front of me. Well, Jake said that. Nick just said "yeah". Nick seems to be the cool one while Jake is,, well Jake's a flake. I know, he's your baby boy but something is off. They keep asking me about exercising and equipment, etc. like I don't know that the questions are actually from your husband..lol. I really hope they don't think it's that easy. For a guy who had shown zero aspect of manhood to two boys, the entire time since they were pre-teen, I think this is pretty low of him. Regardless,,I find it amusing that I can turn them to any direction I choose because of that simple fact ;o) . He want's to play stupid games? Let the games begin..LOL. Such a loser. And now "he's taking up running!", according to Jake's statement. And don't think I don't know you're informing them of what's being said about them. I said Brian is "bigballs when with the boys". He's still playing bigballs as long as the boys are within a hollar's range. Doesn't matter.. Oh how I wish these days were the 70's or 80's. It was so much more fun back then when one person didn't like another. And you didn't have to worry about them going to the authorities and crying like a little bitch. Today's world is built on sissies. Brian is a prime example. Watch what you're eating, sweetie. There, you actually got a little attention today. Bet you feel all warm and fuzzy inside...lol.
Posted on 07/30/2016
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