I finally pack this box on a whim.
Carefully putting receipts and memories away.
A time in my life that was making my head swim.
Wishing it was....any other day.

A friend of mine and I sat down to speak
she said 6 months is a long time to be sorrowfully weak.
I think to myself "J was the love of my life"
Only problem is.....he has a wife....

I've struggled and cried and racked my brain
Trying to see, when, if, please.....can we try again?
Six months I waited, for any word from you
Only this time, no Jay ever came into view.

I thought maybe I was that horrid for having an
affair so torrid. With an old crush, re-friended
who told me he was divorcing or so he intended.
So my heart opened up and jumped into the light
It's been so cold, so dark, so closed up.
I thought this time,I'm alright.

I admit I was blind and didn't see the simple truth,
A man with a wife and kids, has been so uncouth
His voice,his smile was the memory I carry from my youth.
Yet once again, I get run over by love
From someone I thought fit me like a glove.
I had so much pain came into my heart
yet to me in many ways, it was just the start.
So goodbye my friend, my love, my desire
Time to set this box of mine on fire.
One upon a time, he said that sweet soft "hi".
Now I say..... a simple painful "goodbye".

04/22/2012

Posted on 04/22/2012
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