I don't know whether to be sad for you, or happy - LOL. It can be bliss. But eventually the fuzz has to go...

This sort of sounds like me on the days I don't work, well, not all the details you have here, but just the fact that I'm so happy to be alone and quiet - no, not really missing anyone. Good thought progression here with the idea that maybe, just maybe, you're really trying to convince yourself of the last four lines.