My intensity by Jennifer L BanksI hate my intensity
I think it gets in the way
It runs me right into trouble
Right into that abyss
If I open my mouth, forget it
Never a second chance
To redeem myself
My ideas and my mind
Go 100 mph tumbling speed
Earth bound crashing down
And I cut the brake line.
I always think they understand
I realize thats a lie
I scare them and they go away
When all I want to do is share
Instead I lock my doors behind me
And up and disappear.
I dont like making friends
I cannot trust the world
Some kindred spirit
Another intense person
To stop me from bolting away
I know I shouldnt be so friendly
I know I shouldnt share
I know because I fight myself
Then I do it anyway
I dont know what to do about it
Take some pills and sleep
Get high into the azure sky
Until I lose my mind?
But every time it happens
Someone interesting comes close
To share some part of me with them
And I only chase them away.
Its what I do best I guess
Im ashamed of my intensity
Yet its where my creativity dwells
A fire brought out of me
And everybody loves it until it burns them.
I feel so bad being the way I am
This high libido and emotional mind
This fire unquenched desire becomes free
When someone stirred the ashes
If I could stop my intensity I would
But then part of me dies too
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07/31/2005
Author's Note: It's just raw emotions.....
Posted on 07/31/2005 Copyright © 2024 Jennifer L Banks
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Posted by Emma Turtle on 10/29/09 at 03:37 PM Im ashamed of my intensity
Yet its where my creativity dwells
A fire brought out of me
And everybody loves it until it burns them.
I love these lines and the rawness!Good read!Thanks!Emma |
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