I’m standing in the biting cold wind naked,
to remind myself that for once
Spring flowers bloomed,
summer winds played,
and warmed my heart
Two thousand and three
the sun did shine over me
while I danced
under its flirtatious glow.

Then I came to the crossroads
That I knew I’d stumble onto
As many a woman before me
has followed your sun glow.
Looking up at the signposts
Asking you for direction.
“Where were we going?”

The shadows grew long
As the sun slipped over the trees
The answers I didn’t want to hear
and then, I just laid down.
Minutes, hours, days.
Earth is cold and cracked,
Red turns to black.

I heard voices in the distance
And I turned away from them.
Never again,
will I let someone in.
Their echoing calls
For a chance……fade.

my brick walls called out to me
As I ran my fingers along their
impenetrable comfort
And I wandered inside again.

I turned to look back, hoping.
Yet there was no sun,
casting its spell upon me.
To keep me warm
To help me dance.

I’ve shut the lights off
and boarded up the windows,
fixed the cracks in the bricks
and shut the door.
The lock made that familiar click.

You still have the key, but it’s bent.
You know how to get in through the window,
and shine your light into my darkness,
but I’m not expecting you.

09/25/2003