I want to fall
in one direction
into your arms
into bliss
but
I find myself
falling
the other direction

I cannot grasp
the side of
the cliff
to stop myself

Falling
in the other direction
where my mind
is filled
with sadness

it happens
I beat myself up
over my own happiness
knowing that
it wouldn't last
knowing that I was
just dreaming
of you
and me
and the bliss
in my head

It was only
in my head
created by me
to sate the
thirst
of my desires
of my emotions

I want so much
to fall into happiness
and into your arms
but when I really
see what's happening
running off the cliff
and falling

the other way
though it's hard to
accept
makes the most sense
in my mind

to stop
enevitble pain
before it gets
too hard to bare
sadness makes me fall
in the wrong direction

05/15/2003

Author's Note: my muse creates many emotions in me, some not always good but still creative ones at that.

Posted on 05/15/2003
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