He sits
snarling
growling
like the beast he is
He waits
for me to weaken
then he will
attack
My psyche will bleed
it will die
But until then
I must be strong
and this beast
he remains
bound and restrained
in the very void he created
I am relieved
that
the shadows
hide him
He is so repulsive
so grotesque
and even though
He cannot really hurt me anymore
And even though
he's not really visible
I can still detect him
I feel his ugliness inside me
He will forever be
a part of me
woven into my soul
frozen, unremovable
Until one day
when I grow weak
he will escape,
and impenetrate my pretended fortress
He will steal away
another portion, another piece
of my very soul
I will be
subtracted and devoid
of everything I've grown to love
everything I've come to know
all of my hopes and dreams
I will be emotionally impoverished
wreaking of my own violation

04/02/2002

Posted on 04/02/2002
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