here i am,
watching your mouth open and close
frantically, the blanket bobbing up and down
while you unabashedly jerk off against my thigh,
occasionally squeezing my left nipple to get you
to that certain point where nothing matters,
least of all,
me.

here i am,
my head against your shoulder
as your tongue flicks across the
roof of your mouth wildly as you
close in on your goal, reaching for the
rag at the night stand so you do not mess your shorts
and you do not look at my face,
only my skin, naked and rouged with hurt
because it could be any skin,
it only happens to be mine.


here i am,
swinging my legs over the bed
as you sleep with your dick in your hands,
reaching for my clothes and cursing my body
for still being wet in anticipation of yours
that left me with nothing left over
save for this terrible loneliness.


here i am
knowing you will wake without me there
go downstairs and make some tea
thinking nothing of my departure
besides my feelings on tardiness to work.


you would not see me flicking away
those nuisance tears and digging
nail-sized crescents into my flesh
for being so stupid.
for being so
unnecessary.

04/19/2011

Posted on 04/19/2011
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