Well, the obstacles are huge, mountainous, if one tries to see the end goal then one is destined for failure. It's only by placing one foot before the other from moment to moment that suddenly one finds himself at the peak, having never noticed the time. Indeed any stagnation should be perceived as a tactical retreat, never a surrender. "A spiritual body at rest Yet it is pulled and I still push stagnate in the center " - Yes, one self pulls from one side, the other from the other side and there is no movement. But seek to give the intending self a voice by allowing him to win the associations, the energy sources of those other selves, and find that there is but ONE life to live, one being, and no pulling, no pushing to be done. I very much enjoyed this series Gavin, it's so relevant to my current, and continued struggles for LIFE. It's really good to see green arrows by your name. Wonderful job, truly! :-)

Some sense of resignation here. A refusal to face the conflict perhaps. An attempt to deny there is a problem. Spiritually a very precarious situation.