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Amy Wustrin Occupation: Student
City: Garnerville
State: New York
Country: United States
Member Since: May 2004
Last Login: 05/24/2020

Homepage: http://www.myspace.com/4813233

I used to make poetry
Out of the poison in my mind
I'm far too weary
For any of that now

Words and phrases swim
Around my mind
And I make no effective use of them

I just drift
In and out of consciousness
Back and forth from apathy to outrage

All the while
Thoroughly unconvinced
That any of it matters at all

I've grown bitter
Distrustful
And very detatched form myself

I just want to give up
Pack my bags and go home
Take my losses and call it a Life

I haven't lost my faith in God
But any self-assurance I had
Is lost in some hallway
At North Rockland High School
And they no longer welcome
Alumni back for visits
So I can't even go look
For it

Or me
A girl I knew so well
With an extreme passion
For everything she did
And a wide open heart
Conspicuously displayed
on her sleeve where it belonged
Neon signs flashing all around
"Welcome. Stay A While. Come Again Soon."

Who is this woman
That replaced that girl?
Who is this fumbling
Fearful idiot
Taking over and breaking apart
All the love I worked so hard to sustain
All the beauty I saved up through the years
Like dispair is some sort of
Up and coming trend
All the rage in Paris
And suddenly fitting in is a priority?

She can't possibly be Sara
Who loved, indeed, like it was never going to hurt
Even when she had it
On good authority
That it most certainly would

Who would have thrown her arms
Around the whole wide world
If she ever got the chance

Who wanted to live life to its fullest
And who, upon coming to that conclusion
Went ahead and did it
Like a true America Girl ought to

This woman is an alter-ego
A thin shell of a formerly vibrant soul
A formerly beating heart
Not dead
But not living
A jealous bitch, if I do say so myself
And I'm very unhappy with her

She must be Amy
She's got to go
I'm a desparate psycho ex-boyfriend
And I want my Sara back
Because I have to figure out
What to do with the rest of my life
But Amy is a stranger to me
And I can't choose a stranger's future



"Taken out of context
I must seem so strage"
~Ani DiFranco

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Title Date Posted Date Created Ratings
Votes Creativity Form Imagery Overall
  I'm Such An April Fool - Explicit 04/8/2005 04/08/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  I Never Wrote A Prayer Before 03/17/2005 03/17/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Input Equals Output 01/22/2009 01/21/2009 1 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  Insert Ironic Title Here - Explicit 11/28/2004 11/28/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  I Offered You Paradise, But You Chose Hell - Explicit 01/27/2007 01/26/2007 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  I Wish I Could Say This Will Be The Last One 02/26/2008 02/26/2008 1 Outstanding Outstanding Flow Descriptive Well Written
  Jones Drive - Explicit 12/17/2008 12/17/2008 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  #LetGaryDebate - Explicit 09/30/2016 09/30/2016 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  #LetGaryDebate - Explicit 09/30/2016 09/30/2016 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Live Your Life Before It Kills You 10/3/2007 10/03/2007 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Long Semester 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Maybe I'll Never Make it Into Readers Digest's Quotable Quotes.. 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 2 Outstanding Outstanding Flow Evocative Memorable
  Mid-9th grade Crisis 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  NEVERsayNEVER LAND 01/26/2009 01/25/2009 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  No Apologies 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 1 Imaginative Well-Framed Descriptive Memorable
  Not Again 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Ode To My Sister (And myself, and john a little too, somehow) - Explicit 01/27/2007 01/26/2007 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  On Keeping My Love A "Secret" From You 06/6/2005 06/06/2005 1 Outstanding Outstanding Flow Vivid Well Written
  "He'll Never Know How Sorry I Am..." - Explicit 06/24/2007 06/24/2007 1 Brilliant Well-Framed Vivid Well Written
  " 'I Don't Know' Is A Perfectly Acceptable Answer." - Explicit 12/20/2004 12/19/2004 2 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  Restless, Reckless, Lost 01/18/2017 01/18/2017 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  She Doesnt Deserve So Many Of My Words - Explicit 11/24/2004 11/24/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Sleep, Like An Absent Lover 11/29/2004 11/29/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Somewhere Under Red Sky (If Red Sky Is Under RCJ) - Explicit 01/27/2007 01/26/2007 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Sound And Fury 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 2 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
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