holding my breath, hold my hand
08/26/2008 06:54 p.m.

I am going on a date tonight. My first in quite awhile. Dinner and a movie – we’re incredibly interesting folks. He’s so very lucky that I have someone else who wants to go see ‘Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2’, since he said it was my choice. We have tickets to see ‘Batman’ at the IMAX. I am hoping for hand-holding in the back row, or something like that.

I haven’t seen his face in almost two weeks.
He was laughing on the phone last night and I wanted to see his smile.
He makes me feel okay when I am nervous or say the most unbelievably stupid things.

I am afraid to say it. I don’t want to jinx it.
This feels like the beginning.

I am listening to the ring of unanswered phones