I have a crush on a guy with a girlfriend.
09/19/2005 06:55 p.m.

Last week a friend and I were having a conversation about stuff. Long story short there is guy that likes me, I like his room mate more then I like him so I am not going to pursue either of them. My friend thinks I should give the guy who likes me a shot but I just not interested in him. The guy who likes me is cuter then his room mate but his room mate makes me laugh so I am more interested in him. The whole thing is really touchy so I am going to leave it alone. But my friend raised a question (and this is why I am posting this) am I not attracted to the guy who likes me, because he likes me? Am I only drawn to people I don’t have shot with because I am afraid of an actual healthy relationship? Now that I am looking back… I have never been in a healthy, out in the open relationship… ever. My first love my mother broke us up, my second was kind of ridiculous. LOVE STINKS. The more I think about it logistically it does make sense that since I had a bad relationship with my father I am turned on buy guys that will more then likely reject me. HOW PATHETIC!!!! I really feel pathetic. The first pathetic post.