What Am I Worried About?
09/24/2007 12:01 a.m.

October 6, 2006

I am worried. I am depressed. But what am I worried about? What am I depressed about? Is it really my weight, my appearance? Is it really my work, my surroundings? Is it really the new addition? Is it really all those million and one little things I worry about for hours upon hours sitting on my bed or couch watching T.V. drifting away into oblivion? No. At 4:30 pm, having worked very hard at hardly working, thinking one million times in 4 ˝ hours, I walked into the shower. As the water poured over me I realized, “It’s not those million little things I’m worried about…it’s that one BIG thing. What am I DOING about what I’m worried about…thinking?? Yes, thinking I am DOING NOTHING.”

Yes, it’s ONE thought that encompasses the million others…ONE fault that creates a million others…ONE worry that breeds a million others. And there is only ONE ACT and ONE TIME that can unify one million divisions back into ONE.