Remember I'll Always Love you
01/13/2003 03:51 a.m.
God, I'm so in love...so so in love. You know...you know that storybook fantasy where you have your high school sweetheart and they end up being your forever sweetheart? Yeah, and you know that saying "the third time's a charm?" Well this is high school sweetheart #3, but #1 of my heart and I just feel like this is it. I know I've said this before but I've never felt this before. Yeah, I loved one, maybe two of the other two but it wasn't true, pure romance love, it was puppy love if anything. Maybe a touch stronger with James, but that's a whole different scenario in itself. This is LOVE. This is a feeling that so completely surpasses any emotion I ever imagine one could have. I didn't even know that feelings could be this strong. If it gets too much stronger I think parts of my body are going to randomly explode -- starting with my nose. There aren't any adjectives to describe the way I feel about Tory. The basic extent I can give you is a hand motion and a few facial expressions but no actual words. If you want to see them, ask me and I'll show you. I say this every time Tory and I spend half a moment together, but I've never felt so close to anyone in my life. I'm not intimidated by him. I'm not scared of him in the slightest. I don't hold him up on a pedestal either because he's not this godlike figure with hair blowing in the wind...he's just my Tory, and I couldn't ask for anything better than him just being my Tory. And the way we both see it, that's not going to change. If I can keep him forever and ever I couldn't be happier. This love that I feel is just the most powerful, amazing thing ever in the history of feelings. And yes that does include the feeling of warm apple pie, the perfect temperature swimming pool, a kitty cat licking your hand, or the best goddamn orgasm in the world. This is LOVE. The most sincere love I have ever had in my life -- both giving and recieving. And the way I'm feeling at this exact moment, that's not going to go away. And I don't want any lip from you relationship-cynics because this is the most amazing feeling in the world.
I am currently Surreal
I am listening to No Quarter - Tool