one year
01/10/2002 02:56 p.m.
tomorrow is mine and paddy's one year anniversary. i cant belive we've been together a year already. it doesnt seem like it was that long ago we first started going out but looking back over the year, we've been through a lot.

this year hasnt been easy for me and without the continued unconditional love, support, help and friendship of my wonderful boyfriend i dont think i would have managed to make it through. no matter what, he was always there for me to love me. sometimes id have a really bad day and just want to break down and cry, and sometimes i did and he held me and listened to me and comforted me.

most of the time though, if i felt really awful, all he had to do was put his arms around me and hed take all the troubles away. sometimes it seemed to me(ok cheesiest thing ive ever written) that those arms were like a magic sponge that could just soak up everything bad. every time i lay in his arms i felt sfe, secure, warm and loved. i cant count the number of times ive layed in those arms and nothing else matters adn it all just melted away and its like were the only two people in the world.

with most couples. especially couples our age, the intital attraction kind of dies after the first few months. theres no passion and the excitement just leaves the relationship. it was never like that for me. im even more attracted to him now than when we first met. i still get excited every time i go out to meet him and my heart still skips a beat when i catch my firsty glimpse of him. a smile still spreads across my lips when he signs onto msn and my spirits soar when i get a message from him.

as well as my boyfriend, hes also my best friend. theres no one id rather talk to than him, no one id rather spend time with, no one id rather be with, now and forever. i love everything abuot him. i love the way he can put his rams around me and make everything ok, i love the calming influence he has on me, i love how he listens to me and reassures me, i love how he warms me up when im cold, i love how sweet he is, i love how tolerant he is, i love how good tempered he is, i love how peacful he is, i love how loving he is, i love the way he makes me laugh, i love the dimples that dance in and out when he smiles, i love the way i could drown in his beautiful eyes, i love the way his hair curls at the back......i love him.

i have so many happy memories of the past year, though its been hard because of other things, the fact it was spent with paddy makes it the best year. i hope i can spend every year of the rest of my life by his side.

thank you for everything you've done for me paddy. there are no words big enough to thank you enough. you've given me things i didnt know existed and made me feel better than i thought i ever could. i never want to leave you. stay with me forever.
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