people leaving
12/11/2001 03:32 p.m.
so dave was the first oen to go. he doesn thang round with us anymore. he has his own group of friedns. sometiems he coems to hang out for a while, very rarely.
the next one to leave was shorty. he seemd quiet but i spent a lot of tiem with him and he even ate my cooking which shows a certain degree of devotion! he joined a band and then began spedning less and less tiem with us till evetually he juist stoped hanging with us altogether. i miss him. we got on really well. he taugh me a few things on guitar and we always had a good tiem together.

then there was a big issue with johnny nd jen. i met johnny first. hes philys brother. i talked to him online and then i met him on the island oen day during the summer. he was hysterically funny and he cracked me up. i got on really well with him. then met his girlfriend jen and hse was really sweet. i liked her a lot.

then things got complicated. johnny and jen had bene goin out for a long tiem and had decided to get narried but johhny didnt wnat to be tied down so early. he wnated to expereince other girls b4 he setteld down. he suggeste dhe and jen take a brak for a while. paddy and soem of the other people in the group thought he was comin onto me , adn if im honest, he was. i never encouraged him and he knew how much i love paddy. the others tought he was being sleazy, which eventaully led to abig fall out, afterwhich he decided to leave the group adn not coem back.

he got back with jen but then she had a big fight becasue she had controversial views on things in the group. she tought there as too mcuh underdage drinking , as the younger oens were only 14 and we shouldnt be supplying them with alcohal. this caused a major debate, ending in dani leaving a mesage on our mailing list that jen was a bitch and no one liked her. this wnast true, dani was on double zero as i recall when he posted that. anywya johnny and jen never came back.

chris was another oen who had me in hysterics every tiem i saw him. he only had t oen his mouth and id be reduced to fits of giggles immedialy. he was from ards adn suddenly decide dhe couldnt be botherd coming down to bangor every day or every week and he just stoped coming. this meant ian didnt coe anymore cos he came upwith chris. ian left before anyoen really got the chance to get to know him.
phiiy cant coem down very oftenb anymore either.
gradually the group just got smaller and smaller. poele whod been so close now hardly saw each other. i nevr fell out with any of them i and imissed them lot. i still do.

then between the ones who styaed more problems arose. even tho non eof then directly invloved me , i think i was more cut up than anyoen else about it.

it took a very dangerous and extreme experin ce for me to reliase how precous every moent of lif is and how precioes every single person is
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