lonely
05/25/2004 04:28 p.m.
i miss him. its taken time for me to realise just how much. breaking up with him was the single most self destructive thing ive ever done, including all my cuts and scars and over doses. now im dead inside. usually when im upset or confused i write, and i feel better, but its only recently ive even been able to begin to process what ive done. i know he was hurt at the time, but i foolishly beleived it was for the best and i moved on quickly, much too quickly. now hes moved on but im only beginning to feel the enormous weight on my heart. i guess this is what they call poetic justice.


I am currently Nostalgic
I am listening to "painted onmy heart" -The Cult