I drove to lose myself, but still not completely
08/09/2006 03:46 a.m.
So yeah...um...gah....I'll admit it, I miss you a bit. But that's always a constant factor in my life I guess. The knowledge and assurance that you'll always be a part of me. But whatever. You don't want to make plans because you don't want to disappoint me...you will whether you make the plan or not. I mean, you're not really disappointing me, but not wanting to see me is kinda egh :( not a good feeling.

God I really hope my apartment becomes my apartment, I'm suppose to be moving in a week and we're not even sure if there's a place for us to move. I already feel like I've super-imposed myself on Jay, but it's better than having to live farther away with relatives I guess.

I feel kind of out of place with my friendships....and like there's always something more I'm trying to make them. I dunno what I'm talking about right now. It's just I've been all jittery and having these butterflies and with this approaching weekend home I can't quite pinpoint what will be the problem this time. I want to go to sleeep, but my mind just keeps racing and my body won't ease into REM. But I guess I'm gonna try and try and write something witty later...
I am currently Insecure
I am listening to Silverstein